Sunday, September 16, 2012

1/3 of A Year Old

This post is coming to you a little late because, well, I'll explain it below.


Baby Dean,

Well. You're four months old now and still growing like a weed. When we went to the doctor on the 12th, you were 24 inches long, and 11 pounds, 10 ounces.
You can now:
roll from tummy to back
roll from back to tummy
fully support yourself standing (you only need us for balance)
sit up on your own
play with toys
and so much more...

We tried Rice cereal for the first time yesterday, and you are NOT a fan.

Our pediatrician said she wanted us to wait until you were 5 months, but you've been going through this stint of nursing every 2 hours, day AND night, for a good two-three weeks now and, well, I need sleep, so we're going to start just a little early.

Now, this is coming to you a little late because we've had a loss in the family. Your great-granny, (My grandmother) has passed away.

It's difficult to go through the emotions of this, but I think everyone in the family is dealing... in their own way nonetheless.

Your great granny and your great pappy were married for 61 years. They had 5 children, 8 grandchildren, 2 step-grandchildren, and 6 great grandchildren with one on the way (by the way you have a cousin due to arrive sometime in March... but more on that another time).

The love that Granny had for all of us was unconditional. She'd do anything for us and was proud of all that we did. She was the best grandmother to grace this earth, and we were all blessed to be loved by her.

Just know that she will be watching you always and loved you very much, even in the short 4 months she knew you.

You helped me and a lot of family members get through this week of saying good-bye to such a great lady. Your smile brightens the world around you, just remember that.

I love you baby boy.
xoxo
Your Momma.






and one hilarious outtake:





In Loving Memory:


Nadine B. Sadler
08.16.1934 - 09.11.2012

Saturday, September 1, 2012

One year ago today...

Today is an emotional day for me.

A year ago today, I peed on 3 of those magical sticks and found out I was pregnant.

The overwhelming shock was so intense, I found myself bawling my eyes out, alone, and wondering how I'd tell Dean.
You must understand that I DO indeed know how babies are made, and yes more pre-cautions could have been had, but this was God's plan for us.
You also need to understand my mind set at this point in my life. I was 23 days away from my wedding. I had plans to finish college in the near future, and then have children shortly after. I had just been out with my best friend celebrating her 21st birthday two days before taking the test (aka: a night of heavy drinking), I had been without health insurance for about 3 years and I knew that my future and all my plans were changing right before my eyes.

After collecting myself enough to speak, I called Dean, told him I needed to talk to him in person (he was at work) and proceeded to drive to meet him there.

Once we were locked in a small car together, through my tears, I told him I was pregnant. Dean was in shock just as I thought he would be. He left work early to come home with me, and after a short drive, I met my soon-to-be husband back at our house and he.was.excited. Giddy. Thrilled even. (It took me a little longer to get to this point, I'll be honest).

We had a small lunch and Dean decided he couldn't keep it a secret so we called our parents (who were beyond thrilled) and a few close friends. We felt being able to share it with just a few people at this point was heathy, and we would let the rest of the world know after the wedding and after a doctor appointment.


It's crazy that I can still remember that day just like it was yesterday. But it is rather important. That day I knew I was going to be someone's Mom. That I was going to have a child; to raise and love unconditionally.

When I checked on my boy last night before I went to bed, I stuck around just a little longer. Taking in his peaceful sleeping. His innocence. The miracle that Dean and I made, and I knew was coming to the world a year ago.

I love that boy more than I ever thought I could love a person. And I am so thankful that this day will forever mean something to me.